On Becoming

There will come a time in your life, maybe many, when you realize that who you once were is not who you want to become.

 

And in that moment of clarity, time stops, a portal of infinite potential opens around you. 

 

And you can choose.

 

You can choose to let go of the thoughts that kept you trapped, the expectations that never fit, the people you outgrew, the comfort zone keeping you safely stuck, and the inner story that it’s all too late. 

 

Finding yourself is one of the many points of life, and yet many don't even dare to try.

 

Maybe they once did in their 20s, when their eyes were bright and naive confidence high. But they stumbled and failed, heard “play it safe” one too many times, got their hearts broken, were tired of waiting for the maybe someday. 

 

When you look in the mirror only to no longer recognize your reflection, you are given a gift. 

 

Through awareness you are able to try again, pick yourself up and grip the pen with shaky hands. 

 

Not because your fear is gone, or you have a clue where you are going, but simply because you no longer have a choice.

 

For what you are not changing you are choosing, and now that you are awake to the depth of your misalignment, there is no way you will allow yourself to give up without trying one last time.

 

In case no one has told you – you are allowed to die 1,000 times in one lifetime only to realize it will take 1,001 – so long as you also make it to 1,002.

 

All of this to say, nothing in nature is static. We are always shedding old layers to be born anew. The only true death is stagnancy. 

 

So when that moment comes, the one of many, when you realize you have outgrown the yesterday version of yourself, I dare you to grin into the void, serve up your discontents, and use every moment thereafter as an opportunity to choose again.

 

We decide where we want to go and who we want to become in every mico moment of the mundane. 

 

From the flowers we plant in our yard, to the people we wave to on the street, the food we cook after work, the way we speak to ourselves in our head, the time we get our tired feet into bed, the people we call friends, the perspectives in which we view the world, it’s all a choice that gets used to create our ever changing future. 

 

So feel the fear and do it anyway. Get so uncomfortable you have no choice but to metamorphosize into the you that causes a gentle smile to appear in the bathroom mirror as you get ready to begin again.